my head hurts :( and I want to cry... mommy when you say sairah i don't feel like talking... and i say mommy i love you...and you say good... then u go in the living room and start talking to seema like nothings wrong... laughing with her ... when i went to hug u and u said i dont feel like a hug right now... and then you go and hug seema ...sit with her laugh talk jus two minutes later... it makes me feel like i'm the wrong one... like i'm the reason ur sad... like i'm the reason ur mood is off... so i jus sit in the room all alone bcuz when i come in the living room u get quiet... did you know i fell mommy? I called u...mommy come plz...but i don't think you heard me... do you know i'm feeling so sick? i have been telling you for 2 days... but then when seema says i'm cold you run and get her a heater... do you know i need a hug mommy? i keep asking for a hug... but when seema comes and lays next to you puts her head in your lap you start playing with her hair and you put your arms around her... i saw it today and when seema got up i came and layed down right where seema was laying... you didn't even look at me... :)... i grabbed your hand and put it on my head... you moved it away once seema turned and looked our way... mommy... i know for u its jus little things... but it hurts...i know you hate it when i tell you these things that hurt me... but if i dont tell you who will i tell? jus hug me without a reason mommy... say i love u sairah...without a reason...