I had some questions for you.. do you not feel my pain?? do you not see my tears as they fall? Do you even hear my cries of pain? Don't you hear me asking... begging for your help? Why me? Do you even know me? Do you hear me asking why? why me? Do you hear when I pray for others? Do you listen when I ask... and pray for your help? God do you even know who I am? Why god?? why did you put me here? Why did you give me a body but not a life? Why can't you just end it all once and for all? Am I something that you created just for the fun of it? Something that is lower than even dirt? Something that people will get a kick out of so they can feel better about themselves? Is it wrong to think about killing myself? Is it wrong to think about the day I am going to die? What did I ever do god to be treated this way? Why did you create me? Why did you make a freak like me? I can't understand god why would you do something like that? Please help me understand... all I ever wanted was to be happy and normal... its hard to watch people go about their lives as I sit here every day watching my life pass me by... knowing there is nothing that I can do to hold on to it... nothing can ever go right... is it too much to ask for? just help me find the right way god... help me get out of these problems... Is it wrong of me to hate this world and everyone in it? Am I so wrong to hate myself so much that I want to die? You won't give me the thing I want the most... the security that I have you... How much more suffering do you want to see from me? How many more tears do you want these eyes to cry? Is it not my turn to leave this place? I have nothing to live for.. I would be lying if I said I don't want something to live for...but I have nothing...all I have is my dream to be something big...so I can show everybody I can do it... why aren't you helping me find the way? God I am asking for your help... which ever way you chose.. either by taking me or by showing me the right way.. please help me god I am begging you to help me :( maine hamesha aap pe yakeen kiya hai..aur karti rahungi...please meri help kijiye...apki beti aapse help maang rahi hai...please sab thik kar dijiye...mai hamesha aapki aabhari rahungi...mai bahut pareshaan hu...aur sirf aapke paas hi koi solution hai..I feel so abandoned at the moment. Please show me that you are with me. I need you. Please help me. I feel so ill and weak. I feel my mental health is going down. I am homeless and need suitable, safe accommodation. Please help me to find it and with my applications. Please make me well, so I can be more useful to you and everyone else on the planet. Please send me close friends. Please help me with my social phobia. I'm so scared. I can't do this on my own. I'm running out of strength and my spirit feels crushed. Please help me. Please forgive me for all the wrong I have done and give me the chance to start everything new... Thank you for all that you have done for me.. I will always be great full to you.. I just need your help... please help us... help mom.. help me... help pankaj... help anjani.. please god help us... show us the way :( please help god..
Sairah
